keepitloose

Absolutely i believe in true love. More than anything else in my life. I find support in it were many people find support in God.
But not love at first sight. lust at first sight, DEF!

Didn't have a good day yesterday. I smoked with my friends and convinced myself I didnt need to eat, but i did it anyway.
I was trying not to binge and purge all week, but i couldn't control the munchies and i pretty much ate the kitchen.
And then i purged. and went for a run because i felt digusting. I know...who gets high and then runs? a girl with an eating disorder, that's who.

My birthday is this weekend and my boyfriends is coming to visit from college. Im worried about all the cake and shit, and plus, i know people are going to say something about my weight loss. I've lost a lot recently, and my mom is always commenting, so im sure other people will too. Ill just say "oh.." haha oh dear.

My math teacher, in front of the class yesterday was like, you're small. I was like "oh..." haha i didnt know what to say. But she seemed to stray from the subject. Then she said the same thing to this other girl who's in the class who i know also has an eating disorder. we just looked at each other. It was a little weird that she said something, but i know we both enjoyed the attention.

STATS for today.

height: 5'5''
HW: 125
CW:104
GW: 100

im going to try and maintain 100 once i get there, which will hopefully be very soon!

1. painting my nails.
2. doing art.
3. watching tv
4. calling my boyfriend
5. going out with my other ED friends
6. ciggs
7. running
8. dancing
9. reading
10. showering

there are so many more. this is just a start. but i feel like binging, so i was inspired to make this list
sorta ironic isnt it?
off to pain my nails

new to livejournal.
my name is kendra
i'll be 18 on march 14th [soon!]
i am an artist. i paint draw sing and act.
i am a starving artist.
i have an eating disorder.